Did the teaching that your really enjoyed, consolidate your feelings about wanting to go into academia afterwards. 

It made it harder because I did really enjoy it and I could see myself teaching and I could see myself teaching history, at that time history was very important, it was the only thing I'd ever wanted to study. I was loving the teaching of history but at the same time I was finding that when I was doing the doctorate I didn't enjoy so much the er you know the going to conferences, the giving the papers, putting yourself out there in terms of your research and your ideas, and that didn't turn me on at all  and so an academic career wouldn't be for me. So I was in this kind of dilemma where I really loved the teaching but not the research/publication side er but I knew I didn't want to teach at secondary school. My husband who I was with at the time was a secondary school teacher and I knew that I didn't want to do that, and there was no other possibility of teaching history, so that was quite a hard one, it took a long time to really think about that and see where I was going to go.